Thursday, 14 August 2025

Muse

A person typing on a keyboard
Photo by Sai on Unsplash
The house lights faded first in the vaulted concert hall, so that rows of shadowed faces stretched beyond the reach of the spotlight, even the ceiling arched so high that the dim glow failed to touch its darkened curves, causing a stir in the upper balconies where the sudden hush, like one single exhale, revealed that each seat was full and anticipation running high.

Both the fill and key lights came alive above the majestic stage not long after, followed closely by the backlights catching the polished black lid of the Steinway concert grand. Two footlights along the platform’s edge kept just enough glow for safe footing, the soft colours creating shallow shades along the stage as Francisco approached the centre of the podium.

Hypnotised eyes traced his every move, the way his breath fogged beneath the intense backlights as he took his designated seat at the grand piano. With his slender fingers hovering above the black and white keys, a moment of absolute silence hung in the air. Then, as he flexed his wrists once, in E‑flat minor, he struck the first chord of Samuel Barber’s Sonata.

The action of the hammer danced beneath the enthralling sound, the immediate mechanical click lost beneath the sonata’s brutality, and notes shattered into the air in dissonant clusters that lingered too long, bending back from somewhere high in the deepening shadows where the stage lightning could not reach.

When the Adagio’s slow ostinato began, his fingers pressed softer, sinking deep into the weighted keys, and the haunting melody bent again, before collapsing into the opening of the finale. His hands moved faster now, crossing and twisting in all directions as the grand piano growled and shrieked in four different tones, creating a hauntingly beautiful harmony.

Then… silence. The striking notes came to an end as thousands breathed out as one, gasping, captivated by the melancholy sonata and lost in its remarkable and tender melodies that ended far too soon, far too suddenly.

And the world tilted on its axis.

Francisco lifted his hands off the keys, and the cameras pulled back and tilted the frame so that they captured a distorted version of the concert hall and the thousands of attendees, who secured seats at great expense to witness the craft of his otherworldly artistry as a famed pianist, whose renown stretched far and wide, across the globe. A living legend, a black sheep in the dwindling industry slowly losing its soul, bringing back the golden days of the classics with his talents.

But as the cameras lingered on his inverted form, recording the chiselled features of his face under the dimness and shrewd angle, he carried a secret so great that should the word spread, he might never recover from it, and the ladder be ripped out from under him before he even reached the top.

Greeting the audience, bowing just low enough to make it look like he cared about them, he raised his head and let his eyes settle on the clapping audience clad in elegant costumes made from the finest fabric to ever exist. But it was not those superficial details that caught his attention this very second.

As the sea of bewitched attendees fought to meet his gaze, the stage lights gradually switched on, and his eyes settled on a young woman who wasn’t supposed to be there. Garbed in a black evening dress, she wore a smile on her china face, one that grew wider by the second until it turned into a grotesque rictus – something in between a grin and a scream cut short. Too short, in his opinion.

When he straightened his spine, she was gone, and in place of her remained an empty seat with white lilies on top, and from the petals dripped fresh blood. A smirk tugged at his lips as he saw the crimson liquid, reliving the moment his muse sacrificed her body and soul for him, going so far as to become his – truly his – just to see him grow into his full potential, or rather, die thinking her selfless contribution added something to this mundane world.

But she wasn’t the only one who had these unhealthy ideas, not the only muse he had and would continue to have for as long as his secret remained hidden from plain sight.

People of all sexes and walks of life sought him out, some as genuine fans of what he represented or thought he did, while others were slaves to their sexual desires, hankering for his flesh as if it were the forbidden fruit itself, unable to resist the sweetness. But what was so bad about Eden’s fruit? Wasn’t it the beginning of humanity as it is, or perhaps, the moment humanity’s story began to unravel because it fell apart first?

Without the darkness we each carry deep in the chambers of our blackened hearts, what purpose would light serve? In the end, light was created as a response to this vast darkness and the weight of that morbidity within it, hiding in plain sight but never truly seen, not until it was brought back into our lives one way or the other – sometimes – on purpose, even.

And just as light needed darkness to thrive, a harmless and necessary agreement, so too was the pact Francisco made with his victims. He gave them what they wanted in return for something far greater, turning each one of them into his muses and keeping them alive in his memories and celebrated magnum opuses. Such was indeed the secret he carried, and not a single day passed without him honouring them, as he relived their final sacrifices each night before stepping onto yet another sold-out stage.

With the cheers reaching a disturbing crescendo and the concert hall trembling beneath the weight of the audience’s fervent applause, Francisco slipped away from the podium, and his shrewd, upside-down shadow stretched long and restless into the growing darkness beyond the stage lights.

 

Monday, 4 August 2025

Femgore Review

A person standing in front of a curtain in the dark
Photo by Catalin Pop on Unsplash

I can’t understand females despite being one myself. Sure, you’ve got a kid to take care of and all that, but why endure being beaten black and blue when you can just… feed your abusive partner some pills?

I can’t understand how somebody can be so stupid when ending the misery is so easy. So easy that I can’t phantom why anybody would rather endure the pain and agony than fight back in the most perfect way there is?

Or when you’re raped and lying next to your rapist, why not just take a knife and stab them when they least expect it? It’s so easy that I can’t understand why no female ever does it, why they choose to endure rather than to end it.

I’m no sexist, yet sometimes the very stupidity of my sex gets me worked up in ways no words can truly capture. At the same time, I perceive myself as a feminist at heart, for I’d rather see my sex fight the oppression and the abuse by giving right back to their abusers than stay idle, yet they rarely do.

That lack of action actually made me distance myself from my peers. Like, seriously, you’re just going to get raped and do nothing about it? Your kids? Your poor, poor kids? Well, aren’t they better off at some random orphanage than learning how to treat other people from that partner of yours?

But those kinds of things aren’t even the tip of my disturbing opinions about females and the growing trend of embracing masculinity, which is all about showing similar and violent tendencies as the very sex that puts them in so much misery.

Like, seriously? You think you have what it takes to take on an average man with that build of yours? Sure, steroids will help you get those muscles to look way larger than they are, but are they actually making you strong enough to fight back a man with natural levels of testosterone?

I’m not a man, but I think the answer to this question is pretty obvious, and yet… Nowadays, female authors seem to give my sex the false hope that we can take on an average man with ease, abuse them, and show just as much brutality towards them, as they have shown to us for ages. But just how detached from reality must someone be to actually believe this crap?

I’m not talking about transgenders but cis-people, by the way, even though when the transition has begun plays a subtle part here, like the density of the bone, the levels of testosterone before it was suppressed, and so on. Anyway, so what I am trying to say is that… I’m going to prove them all wrong.

Getting raped? Easy! As long as you have a hole somewhere, there will be dogs barking up across the country. What is hard, the hardest part in fact, is to turn the dog into a bitch and make it howl while you, as the female in this situation, make it immobile, cut off its testicles, and then grind the flesh with a proud smile.

Really, the only realistic way to do all that is to, well, knock out your rapist with a blunt object when they’ve finished their thing or, surprise, feed them some pills. But that would be too easy and wouldn’t prove the theory of how women are capable of doing exactly the same things to their abusers as they have done to them.

So, what do you do in that scenario? Well, the best outcome would be to physically fight off the rapist and then go from there. So… that’s what I decided to do.

Did it work? It did not. But I’m here, writing this, so something must’ve gone right… right? The thing is, I just did what any sensible female would in such a predicament: I tore my abuser’s ear off and then chewed on his nose. A tad too salty and metallic in taste, not to mention the acidic aftertaste of the byproducts produced by bacteria on the skin tissue. Yikes! Why do men never shower?

Overall, this method was a very unfortunate 3/10 – would not recommend. For my next attempt, if I ever should decide to push the limits, I’d definitely prepare more beforehand in case something goes astray during the review itself. And, well, I’d also practise my cutting skills so that the body parts are grounded to perfection before dumping them down the drain.

Also, for my next article, I’m open to new recommendations. So try your worst, and I’ll see you next time in another abysmal review!

Important notice: the procedures outlined in this article were performed under controlled settings and should never be replicated.

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